May 22, 2009

What do you think?

Okay, I thought I typed this post up, but I'm looking and I don't see it...I might be officially losing it! Anyway. I need some insight. The week before Mother's Day I was late for my period and one morning while I was getting ready for the day and having my daily conversation with God. I asked him to give me a sign if I was preggers or not. Since I'm not too sure when God is speaking to me I asked specifically for a certain song, "Mr. Mom" by Lonestar.

So I went on with my day, kissed Jess good-bye and began my journey to work. I didn't even get on the freeway when the old familiar beat came on and I was screaming to Jesse about what I said to God and couldn't believe He actually played the song. :)

Much to my dismay, a few days later, Aunt Flow came and I was upset for God playing that "trick" on me. I got over it and was brave enough to go to church on Mother's Day. We walked in grabbed our seats and the first song was playing. We sat down for literally 2 seconds and would you know what the band started playing???? Yes, you guessed it, Mr. Mom! I instantly was in tears and wanted to run from the room.

I cried all the way home telling Jesse that God just doesn't like me. To have played that song twice and obviously there is no baby right now. My ever so insightful husband begged to differ. He said God played it twice, maybe not to inform me I was pregnant but to let us know we are on the right path. To trust in Him and just enjoy the journey. I believe that and I so trust in Him, but I can't help the fear too. What do you guys think about this chain of events?


Ashley said...

I'm sorry that happen to yoU!! It looks like you have a wonderful husband though;) ((HUGS))

Amber said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and glad to meet another teacher as well:)

Sorry to hear of the songs playing and getting your hopes up, I think God is definitely giving you some type of sign.

Christina said...

I would have felt the same way as you but I'm with Jesse on this one. I think that maybe God is giving you a headstart by making you learn patience NOW rather than when you already have one and have to learn on the fly.

Mimi said...

I definitely think it is a sign that you are on the right path. Sometimes life deals you lemons. Go out and make some lemonade honey! It will happen!


Kristin said...

It sounds like your husband has the correct take on it. I think maybe the message is you will be soon. Good luck.


theworms said...

Welcome to ICLW. I think your DH has it right, it's a sign of good things to come. GL

BB said...

In the past several months I have felt like I have had several *signs* from the almighty... only to have had BFNs. Though I still believe the best is yet to come! I am sure your miracles is on its way! We will be blessed! :)

A Mom in Jacksonville, FL said...

Your DH has a wonderful, positive outlook. Glad that he is so supportive!

From one teacher to another---here's hoping your days until summer vacation fly by! :)


Meant to be a mom said...

First of all thanks for the comment on my blog, your a sweetie.
2nd I have a theory on what happned to you. See I think he knows you will be a mom and he is making your angel baby right now up in heaven so technically your a mom you just don't know it and when he's done making that baby he'll put it inside of you to grow and raise. I think thats whats going on. :)
Also I don't blame you for crying and breaking down, I would have done the same thing. Thats sad that you had to go through that. These fertility lifes are always messing with our heads and emotions.

WiseGuy said...

I think your hubby interpreted it very well....and Michelle, you have a beautiful smile....I was glued to the header!


Beautiful Mess said...

Awww that must have been pretty harsh, I'm so sorry! I think your husband is a very wise man. he might be right. I've asked for signs before and was always left thinking "WHAT?!" Sending you lots of hugs and prayers.

Clare said...

You have a very insightful husband. I would have reacted the same way you did, but his words do make you stop and think. Maybe Big G did it to make you realize what a wonderful husband you have too?

Happy ICLW!