Mar 17, 2010

Leprechauns Came to My Class!!! YIKES!

We had quite a day in my classroom. Check out my school blog. The kids were hilarious. They all were talking to the other classes. One of my kids said, "I know they were real leprechauns because Mrs. Proper didn't smile at all." Another kid kept saying, while fanning herself, "I can't believe REAL leprechauns were in this class. Oh my gosh, real leprechauns did this!" HYSTERICAL! I love my job!


Thank you so much for all your encouragement and support. I cannot begin to tell you guys how much each and every one of you means to me! I'm sure all I'm feeling right now is totally normal. I don't think you can help but freak out a little after waiting and wanting something for 7 years!

This April will be 7 years since Jess and I decided to throw out the birth control and "see what happens." I find it so amazing how you "planned" life to be and how it is actually playing out. I'm so thankful to have endured what we have. That sounds a little disturbing, but it's honestly how I feel. If we would've gotten pregnant back then, I know Jesse would have NEVER left his job that I HATED, we would probably never see each other, we wouldn't be going to the church we are now, we probably wouldn't like each other much.

Isn't it amazing how God works? I feel now, every little (AND BIG) thing that has happened to us over this time has molded us and shaped us into some really changed people. We are so much better now than we were then. I don't mean that in a conceited way, but I mean we are more well rounded people. We know who we are and who we want to be. Granted we both have our moments, but because of what we've been through, I know that there is NOTHING Jesse and I can't get through together and I know that I have a partner in life, love (and crime! :) just kidding! )

So, thanks for helping me become the person I am. I know I will be a much better mom than I would've been 7 years ago. All of you have had a hand in helping me be okay with what we've gone through and what is yet to come.

On a side note, I signed up for SOCK IT TO ME back in February. I'm really bummed. I was so looking forward to this, but it has turned out to be a flop for me. I know there is nothing Kymberli could do about it. But, I still haven't received my socks. I feel like such a nerd running out to my mailbox every day. I was hoping to have my socks for the first of my appointments and wear them to every procedure and just feel the love of all "my girls." Right now I feel like a big dope. BUMMER!!!

One more side note...This is my 95th post. Can you believe it?! My 100th post will be here soon! Wow, what an accomplishment!

Mar 15, 2010

Freaking Out---

So we are still in the very BEGINNING process of our embryo adoption. We have done 2 of the 3 beginning steps before we complete the preliminary application. We are just waiting on our doctor's appointments. Jesse's is a physical basically saying that he has no conditions that would jeopardize his ability to be a parent. Mine is basically the same thing, but adds that there is no reason why my RE should believe I couldn't carry a child to term. Okay those have been scheduled; Jess- March 25th and me-April 1st. What an April Fool's that will be?!

So now I'm starting to freak out a little. Am I sure this is what I want? What if I hate pregnancy? Could this really happen for us? What if I'm fat? What if I'm a nervous wreck for the whole 9 months? What if we don't match up with a decent family? What if...? What if...? What if...?

I guess for so long this has been a distant it's so close, it could possibly happen. I actually feel like a "normal" person now. I could really be pregnant!!! My dreams of being a mom could really be coming to life.

I'm still waiting for the other shoe to fall! Is that crazy?!