Oct 21, 2008

Getting back up!

Well thanks to friends and family that are truly the most amazing and supportive people anyone could ask for. I think I am starting to make a change for the better. I have started researching acupuncture and my friend is letting me borrow/use her fertility monitor. I feel like anything I can do will help. Jesse put it all on the line for me the other day. He said, "What would you have said if someone told you that you couldn't teach in Utica?" I answered, "I wouldn't take no for an answer." He replied, "then why are you giving up on us?" Thank Jess. That's what I needed to hear. No more feeling sorry for myself. I have so much to be thankful and grateful for. I will get upset and that's okay. But no more am I going to believe that we are not going to have children. It's going to happen, we are going to make it happen. We both are together working to get what we want most in life, a family all our own!


Christina said...

Crappity Crap. I've been meaning to respond to your posts but blogger was down all weekend for me and I got so tied up. I just wanted to let you know that I am always here to listen and that you and Jesse are in our prayers. I can slightly relate to finding out the othe rperson was pg story. I've been trying to achieve something on my own and when I hear/see that someone else achieved what I wanted to achieve, it just eats away at me little by little. And its totally minor so I can't imagine how that must feel for you. But like you said, I have to remind myself of what I have achieved and that typically brings up my spirits for awhile until something else happens :-(. And I'm sure I've mentioned this before, but there are tons of forums on the internet where you can talk about this stuff with people going through the same thing as you. While I haven't joined one for any specific reason, i can say that the people that have responded to me in times of need have really helped me by sharing their own stories or advice. And of course it helps me because I'm short on time and I'm pretty shy when it comes to spilling the beans about stuff or meeting new people! OK, gotta go but wanted to let you know that we are 100% behind you and Jesse (I love his little "aha" moment he gave you). He's a smart guy! Love, CMH

Ian C. said...

You are a good person Michelle and will be an even better mother when it all finally happens. I can relate to some of the things you are talking about based on my ever-single life and have felt the same way seeing things around me come so easily to other people but not really to myself. Having gone through that, I had to change my own approach just like you have; you are taking the right approach and will see the positive effect of doing so! As with Chris, I am always available to talk!

Anonymous said...

Keep your head up! We do love you guys and are always hear if you need anything from us. I know in my heart it will cometo you guys in time, the Lord acts in mysterious ways :)