Jan 23, 2010

So, She Did It!

Things have been so crazy recently that I haven't posted about my sister. Right after Christmas, she found out she got the job she wanted in California. She would start working on January 25. Well, January 25th is Monday. That means she left. She flew out this morning.

I have been in denial about it since finding out. I think my strategy was if I don't think about it, it's not happening and it can't hurt me. But the fact is yesterday night I had to face it. She was leaving this morning.

My sister and I have always had a up and down relationship. We fight, but we also get along like no one else and understand each other like no one else could. My wish has always been that she and I would one day become the best friend I know we could be for eachother. I feel alone. She is gone and I hope with all hope that even though we will have a HUGE distance between us physically, we will bridge that gap emotionally.

I'm happy for her to be living her dreams, but I can't help but sit here and bawl as I write this. My brother left last February and now my sister is gone. I feel like I'm the only one "holding down the fort."

I wish her nothing but the best and will miss her more than words can say.

6 comments:

Stacey said...

I know you'll miss her, but I hope that you two will feel close even while you're apart! (((HUGS)))

twondra said...

I have tears in my eyes reading this. :( I'm thinking of you! ((HUGS))

Courtney said...

I'm sorry she won't be close by but I'll be praying that this move brings the two of you even closer together. :-)

Kim said...

I remember when my sister left our hometown, I balled too because she took my first and only nephew away from me. I am so sorry.

On the bright side, I later moved to CA and was there for 8 glorious years LOVED LOVED LOVED IT. You now have a fabulous vacation spot! ;)

Meant to be a mom said...

Awe this is so sad. It breaks my heart. I am so close to my brothers and was never able to have a sister but I would hate to not have family around. I understand completely what you mean. Hopefully her being further away can make you both appreciate each other more when you do talk and get together. I wish you sister the best. I hope you are able to feel better about this.
Sorry to hear your having such a hard time.

kanishk said...

I'll be praying that this move brings the two of you even closer together.

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