Sep 16, 2009

Birthday Week!

Well ladies. It is officially birthday week. My 30th birthday is on Saturday and I'm having mixed emotions. I'm so excited to be having a birthday because I just love being the birthday girl. But then I think about when I was 20, where I thought I'd be when I hit the OLD 3-0. I thought I'd have a family. I thought I'd be done having kids. I wanted to be a young mom. I'm trying to remain upbeat about it, but it's just a little scary. I know age is just a number and it's not the number I'm afraid of. I feel I'm the healthiest I've ever been, and if I don't say so myself, I think I look better than I ever have before! :) It's just that thought of wow! you're 30 and you're not where you thought you'd be.

I'm trying to lift it up to God and not have it weigh on my heart because I know there's nothing I can about it, but every once in awhile...I just get a little sad.

I know this birthday will be a lot of fun, we're going to dinner and a comedy show with a bunch of friends and family. I know I'll have a blast, but it's just one of those things where you ponder...I wonder if I'll be a mom on my next birthday, but then again, I realize, there's no sense wasting time and energy on something you have no control over.


Courtney said...

Happy Early Birthday!!!!! I hope you have an awesome day on Saturday and that your family and friends spoil you rotten! You deserve it!!

Melissa G said...

Happy Birthday! I know that all birthdays bring mixed emotions while you're in the IF web. Especially when you've had dreams that you thought would be in full effect already... (and the milestone birthdays don't help either)

Even though I wasn't able to completely forget about it, my wonderful husband did a great job keeping my attention elsewhere for the most part. Hope yours can do the same for you!

Christina said...

We'll be thinking of you on your birthday. Stuck in GR again! I can't wait to see what the future will bring for you. Keep your chin up girl!

Hillary said...

Happy birthday! I am approaching 29 and am having the same feelings...I'm sure once I hit 30 it will be even moreso. Although I, too, feel like I look better now than I did 10 years ago :)

Enjoy being the birthday girl!

Dagny said...

Happy early Birthday!!!

I totally get the mixed emotions. You are a normal human. ((hug))


Stacey said...

Happy Birthday, Michelle! I hope you have a FUN weekend of celebrating. I totally understand the emotions -- there was a lot of sadness surrounding my 30th birthday (I had a miscarriage 3 days before it), and I always had the same hopes of being a young mom.

When the day came, though, it felt like any other day. The anticipation was worse than the actual event. And hey, you're young and beautiful and healthy! 30 is totally the new 20!! :) Enjoy it!

Kelli said...

Happy birthday week! I wish I looked as good as I did 10 years ago!! Enjoy being the birthday girl! xo

twondra said...

Happy early birthday sweetie! IT's understandable the feelings you're having...I think we've all been there, so you're normal. (((HUGS)))

Megan said...

Well, since I turned 30 just before you, I can say that I've had the exact same thoughts. Prayers that you'll be a mommy sooner rather than later. =)

Happy {belated} Birthday!!

Anita said...

Happy WAY belated birthday! :)

I hope that it was great & I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this will be your year!

Hope everything is going well!