Call Me Old Fashioned...and so much more!

So this is my 100th post. I have been fretting the last few weeks about what to blog about. I was hoping to have some very inspirational, meaningful, wonderful post, but I don't think this is it! I apologize! I think this one is going to be more of a cornucopia of complaining, sprinkled with a little niceness. I'm sorry, there are just some things that I need to get off my chest!

Okay, I am fully aware it is 2010. The era of technology and trust me, I LOVE texting. It's so nice to text my teacher friends "Are we wearing jeans tomorrow?" or text as we are leaving for a party, "Need anything." But there are just some things that are not textable! Like, "How's the adoption going?" Really?! I don't even know what to respond to that? Maybe I'm being sensitive, or old fashioned but something like that is worthy of a phone call. I know I might be a little immature here and could've called back, but I am so annoyed by this. You're not texting, "How did the last day of school go?" or "How was the party?" You're texting about something that is VERY meaningful and important to me and, in my opinion, making it feel like it's just an every day thing. Here's an idea, pick up the phone, dial the number, wait for the ring and ask me when I answer! UGH!

Secondly, I am so sick of people who aren't willing to look at themselves and evaluate THEIR behavior. These people are always looking to others to say that there's something wrong with the other person or it's the other person's fault they did what they did. I cannot relate at all to this mentality. I am always self reflecting and evaluating if I handled situations in the best way. And if I do think I was inappropriate or may have handled the situation not in the best light, you better damn well believe I am calling myself out and apologizing. Some people are so eager to look at others instead of looking at them self! It's so annoying. Listen to the great Michael Jackson, Start with the "Man in the mirror" to "MAKE THAT CHANGE!" Seriously people, GROW UP!

Okay, my last part is my "sprinkled niceness." I was driving home on Thursday after a LONG day and I heard a song I have heard a bazillion times. It's Josh Wilson's "Before the Morning." Obviously I have NEVER really listened to the words before, because as I was driving home, I started crying uncontrollably. This song rings so true to the journey Jesse and I have been on with our infertility, considering of our options and finally deciding on adoption. I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do. Here are the lyrics and I'll try to find the song for you to enjoy! Thanks for listening!

Do you wonder why you have to
Feel the things that hurt you
If there’s a God who loves you where is He now

Maybe there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending

Someday somehow you’ll see you’ll see

Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

My friend you know how this all ends
You know where you’re going
You just don’t know how you’ll get there
So say a prayer

And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory

It’s just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning



Okay so in finding this video, I learned that this song was written because Josh Wilson's friends had a second child was born with a heart defect that was very grim. Hear about the story at www.beforethemorning.net The video is about 10 minutes long, but totally worth it! Get the tissues! I WILL NEVER GIVE UP, I know I will be fine, I have God on my side!!! God bless!