Pretty Bad Blogger Am I?!

Hello long lost girlfriends! It's been soooo long and I'm so sorry. So much has gone on, yet so much remains the same! I guess I didn't want to blog about all the boring running around and doctors appointments and blah, blah, blah. But things have been rolling right along!

The beginning of April I met with my doctor about our embryo adoption plan. She was not only on board, she can't wait for us to be her "first" embryo adopted couples!! I had to have a slew of bloodwork and paperwork done and it felt like it would never end! The bloodwork came back great, it just took FOOOORREVVERRRRRRRR! But it's done and it's moving along!!

Jesse's paperwork was a big fat pain in the butt as well. I called to get all his bloodwork results and the drug urine test results...MIA. Oh yeah, they didn't do them! SOOO, he had to go back and leave another cup of pee in the cup. I couldn't get the cup and deliver it back because you all know we are such evil druggies and we totally would've had someone else pee in the cup for him. Now that it's all done, I can see why they wouldn't let me, but at the time, I was like, "FOR REAL?!"

So after about a month of all the running here, calling there, running back here, doubling checking there...All our medical evaluation stuff is done and just last week we completed the preliminary application!! So, my friends, the ball is rolling and we have officially begun the embryo adoption process. Can I tell you how damn good it feels to have a ball rolling in some direction?! IT FEELS SENSATIONAL!! (I stole that word from you Ads!) I'm so excited.

So much else has been going on, I don't know where to start. Church the last 3 weeks has had an adoption theme, can you freakin believe it?! If God's not telling us this is our path... So, that's been a little cool, scary, emotional and everything in between.

Mother's day wasn't as bad as it has been in the past. DOn't get me wrong, I had my share of tears, but there was something different about it. I just felt like we had a direction and we were actually moving somewhere, so although, I totally mourned what I didn't have, it didn't last super long!! I even held my cousin's new 5 week adorable baby boy and didn't feel the oh God will this ever happen for me. It shocked the hell out of me actually. But I just have this calm sense that God has his arms wrapped around me and is telling me, "trust me, follow me, it'll be okay!" I just want to shout from the rooftops, "WE'RE HEADING IN A DIRECTION!!!!!!!!!!" and that direction has a destination that won't stop until Jesse and I are Mommy and Daddy!!

I can't wait to catch up with all of you and see what's been happening. I see Kami's private, we'll have to do something about that and Stacey's already halfway there, Holy COW!! I can't wait to see what's been happening with all of you. I missed you, but it's good to be back!! LOVE YA!! xoxoxoxoxo