Ugh! Just STOP TALKING!!

Okay, I have to vent a little here...I have a tough job.  I spend my days teaching 24 seven and eight year olds.  Yes, it is a stressful job, but at the end of the day, I LOVE MY JOB!  Honestly, I want to be a stay at home mom when our blessings come, but I don't know if I could ever do it?!

Saying that, I am sooooo sick of these stay at home moms who post all throughout the day how stressful their job is, how they need a vacation, how they would just like a break!  UGH!  Just STOP TALKING!!  Did you not know going into motherhood that it would be a stressful job?  At the same time, as much as I am sure it is stressful, shut up!  Seriously, shut up!  I understand everyone has a bad day and needs  to vent, but seriously there are some moms that I know who every freakin post they put on good ol fb has something to do with needing a vacation or wanting to enjoy a lunch without a kid in their lap.  UGH!

It annoys me so much.  How about instead of complaining about being able to do the most amazing job in the world, look at it as the blessing it truly is!  I would give anything to sit at the table with my baby in my lap and savor the moment.

These same women who are complaining all the time are popping out children as if they were a gumball machine.  Here's an idea, STOP!

I'm sorry if I offend anyone through this post, I know that there are some stressful days as being a stay at home mom.  I am talking about people in my life that literally every post I read has some type of negative tone as to being a mom.  I read them and I just want to jump through the computer and yell at them!  Do they know how horrible they sound? 

This post has been brewing for awhile, so I apologize if it comes off crabby.  This just irritates the daylights out of me.  Look at what you have as a blessing, not as a "job" or a negative thing because there are people out there that would do that "job" for no pay and savor EVERY moment!  I'm just saying....

Good New? Bad News? I Can't Decide...

Last weekend we were out with my parents and my mom asked me if we were notified when someone viewed our profile book or website.  I didn't know the answer and tried to put it out of my mind, but by Thursday I couldn't take it any longer.  I had to know!   So I emailed Dawn our adoption worker.  She called and left a message that she was actually going to give Jesse and I a call for our quarterly update.

I got a hold of her on Friday and she told me that on Nov. 2nd our profile website was viewed.  Dec. 19 and 21 it was shown again.  The 29th our profile book was shown and just recently they shipped our book to the Holland office.  She told me that the Holland birthmother chose a different family.  I asked her about the first 4 and she wasn't sure what was decided with those Moms.

I am excited that it's only been 2 months and our profile has been viewed 5 times, but at the same time, our profile has been seen 5 times and here we still wait.  I know deep down this is good news and ultimately God has a plan, but it's hard to hear also.  I immediately thought, what's wrong with us?  Why don't they like us?

When I got home last night, I looked at our book.  I looked at our website.  There isn't anything I would want to change.  It gives a good look at us and our life together.  I know in my heart all that has happened is good.  But I do have a sense of sadness.  I'm sure it's normal.  I hope it's normal.

I know somewhere there is a baby made for Jesse and me.  The waiting is the hardest part.  I know our time will come.  It just seems so unfair.  I know life's not fair, but after this long of a journey, you begin to wonder is it ever going to end?  Will it ever happen?  The answer is yes and yes, but the waiting STINKS!  UGh!

She also told me that so far this year they have already placed 11-13 children.  Pretty impressive if you ask me!!

So, you tell me, good news or bad news?

WOW! An Award!!

Thanks Jess and Ashley for the award!  I love awards!!!

Here are the rules for the acceptance of the award:
1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you the award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Award 15 other bloggers.
4. Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award.

Here are the 7 things you may not know about me...

1. I sent in a video to be on the Real World when I was 21.  I obviously never was selected, but I sent it!  Talk about reality junkie!

2. I met Oprah last April after I won a huge Gardner White contest!  I will have to post the picture!

3. When I am stressed out, angry or irritated, my first instinct is to clean.  It's very therapeutic!  Jesse knows when I have a mop in my hands to take cover.  He's also really good at teacher's stressful times: conferences, report cards, Open House, etc.  He will make sure the kitchen is spotless so it doesn't bug me!

4. Jesse is only the 2nd person I dated seriously.  I had a high school boyfriend that I dated for 1 year and a half and Jesse.  I went out with other guys, but no one that I said the "l" word to!

5. I cannot go to bed without a clean face or clean teeth.  I don't care how tired I am, the face MUST be clean and I can't even imagine how people can go to bed without brushing their teeth...GROSS!

6. My dream is to one day write a children's book and get it published.  This is also something that scares the living daylights out of me.  I really need to stop talking about it and actually DO IT!

7. My weakness is a bag of potato chips!  I have to keep them out of the house because if they are anywhere near me, I will eat them!  Yum!  Just talking about them makes me want some!!

I am passing the award on to:
Ashlee G at Savor the Moment
Plans Change
Kel at From You and Me to Family of Three!
Tammy at Tammy's Journey
Megan at Infertile Myrtle
Hillary at Making Me Mom
Jacalyn at Faith*Hope*Love*Happiness
Amber at Life in the Last Frontier
Rebecca at The Road Less Traveled
Lex at Beauty for Ashes
Kim at From TTC to Mommy
Jenny at The Borg's Blog
Rebekah at Heart Cries
Em at Snowflakes are One of a Kind
Browniris at The (In)fertility Diaries